Half Bird, Half Cowardly Lion

I keep feeling like i've made the wrong choice. A feeling that won't stop, not only at random moments, but even moments what are meant to be more beautiful I feel a rusty hook tug angrily at my heart only to tear deeper and infect. I question my ability to come to terms with it, as my track record thus far would have me fail completely. I love him. Completely. Now i'm the schoolgirl, who can't sleep at night and who feels like time is running out. There is a light that never goes out. I know he felt this way, once... What do I do now.?